Be more kind. Be more kind. Be more kind. At least, it’s on my mind to. I know I’m not the only one whose insides shake for realising: I want so much for others. With that, and knowing that the world breeds too much pain for them to bear and that wanting gets them nowhere, I cry some tears as I think of those others (I know, in vain). I know I’m not the only one who wants to treat my mother better, be a better sister to my sister, and a better person for my dad. I know that sitting in a bed in a room in a house closes me off from doing anything much for anyone. I know I’ll sleep on this, tomorrow will come, and I won’t have grown much kinder when I bare my teeth to let harsh words out and anger in. I know there are differences – huge differences – between acts of kindness and acting kind. I know that all I can really do that is real is to try being kinder to people because they need me to be, and I, too, need them to be kinder to me. We all have our faults, but what’s harder to shake is your conscience.

Oh, is it THAT:

You’re overPRIvileGED

and

underLOVED?

Shall I tell it to you straight,

or, like me, do you want it the hard way?

No, I’m not a saint,

and it’s for myself and not your own that I would say:

You’re not the first, or the last, or the only.

Sooooorrryyyyyyy!

!!!NOT THE FIRST!!!

!!!NOT THE LAST!!!

!!!NOT THE ONLY!!!

Oh, the shame, honey.

!!!Ahhhhrr, no way!!!

You pray. You pray.

!!!Let me be so fucking special;

Let me be your slave!!!

I did the same.

We weren’t the first, or the last, or the only.

Now I’m free I can see that’s consoling.

Slave, be free! Slave, be gone! Slave, control him!

It’s the free that define the controlling.

It’s ok.

It’s a joke.

I’m just trolling.

Meet me at the guesthouse.
Meet me in the hostel lounge.
Meet me at the campsite toilets.
Meet me in the quiet town.

Bring the fire.

Bring the fire.

Bring the fire.

Bring the fire. Bring a few.

Meet me if you’re willing.
Meet me when you do.
Let’s meet before they read your name out,
abduct you from this view.

Our souls aren’t made for mating now;
I think I’ll wait another few.
It’s bones I want to meet me here;
your hair and flesh and breathing, too.

Your skin smells of newly made melanin.
Your eyebrow is pierced;
at least, something is.
If you have tattoos,
they are funny/
without meaning,
but pretty,
like you,
all the same.

I feel like you’re funny
with meaning.
I feel like it’s funny
when you say my name.
It makes me feel funny
that you know me,
honey.
It’s funny:
you cause me no pain.

But,
hear this,
(it’s important you do):
I can do without you;
I just need myself,
the sun,
and my women.
You are only fun
when you’re willing.

I am only fun
for you
when I’m willing,
and this was never real.

I knew from the beginning.

Crystal Nordic waters roam.

They watch me;
I waver.

I waver with no home.

I think they know I’d rather be
the widow of 1,000 minnows
than the wife
of
just
one
man?

Ah,
all the men have drowned at sea.

Ah,
all that is left, treads their bodies, is me.

Ah,
/d/i/s/e/m/b/o/d/i/e/d/s/h/a/d/o/w/l/o/s/t/a/t/s/e/a/

/T/h/e/……………………………………………………………………………………………re are two of me:
one fills their filaments, frees their form, flees the sea.
The other.

Are there three?

 

When the ship runs out of sea.
When the leg has lost its knee.
When the mouth, emptied of teeth.
When the leaf, without the tree.

idfk, nor do ifc

As they walked through the field, their eyes and fingers met, and they nodded, and said,
“We’re okay with this.”

Always ask the cows; check with them to see if you’re going with or against nature. But some people – some who are seen as worse than the pastoral pure but are actually higher, or deeper – don’t care for what the cows think. They want to make a nature of their own. They actively seek to spin the cows into herds of despair. Is despair hysteria?

They seek out what it is that the cows wouldn’t do. They do it – take up those activities with haste. We can call these types carnivorous, for sure. They want to eat up all of life. They supply their minds with feast and fury, each in greedy measure – in so greedy a measure that the banquet table at which they sit folds at its middle. It becomes the upturned crescent of the herd’s frown. Looking up, though, not down.

It eclipses any at the table who made it (somehow) to the party but, actually, listen to those cows. This is when the party can begin: rid of those who bleat, plump with those who eat, eat, eat.

You might think that when the cuts of meat have been washed, sunken with that same sour destiny as the ___, whose habits of self-restriction are ___ they’re scared to make a vice of ___

___ on the axis, marvelling the ___

And I am counted among them:
d/i/s/e/m/b/o/d/i/e/d/s/h/a/d/o/w/f/l/e/e/i/n/g/a/r/m/s/o/f/m/a/n/y/m/e/n/.

Look!
How the flowers do not shake from the tree,
can be still,
do not breathe,
cannot run,
do not leave,
but
just

 

 

fall.

Of anything,
or anyone,
I’d want to be just one of them,
have my life taken over
then
just wait on floors to
start
again
anew.

It doesn’t seem a challenge just to view –
from tilted windows
without rooms –
the way life brushes
next to you
with
no
zoom.

I want to be the quiet one,
the watching,
waiting,
wildest one,
the daisy-chain
withstanding rain,
feeling
no
pain.